there is sugar in your fucking soy milk

THIS SHOULDN'T BE AS HARD AS IT 

is, 

because we had it figured out and there were plans and 

you smiled when I nodded and I'd count the days you weren't around

and then the minutes, but now the sounds of your heavy footsteps at night 

late, 

and angry 

and maybe a little drunk, 

and jealous and I TOLD YOU SO, 

you're saying it 

without saying it 

without saying it

without saying it 

I cleaned up, 

but don't mention it, you know..

my heart pounds like heavy rain hard on concrete and furious with the sky!

...but I digress.