what now construction men

there is a little kitten, black 

in my lap and 

outside my apartment men are making a lot of noise

and it sounds like 

ssswwwwssshhhhh and beep beep beep beep and uuunngggggggggggggg

drowning out the sound of the T and the cars and the people that walk by, 

and I'm in here, 

most of the time, 

I'm in here with an angry stomach and

ian curtis the kitten is asleep and 

morrissey the cat is on a different adventure in a different room- 

this is a very small apartment 

but there's usually enough room in it to feel lonely, 

green ginger tea, 

anxiety, 

and trying hard to remember other places.