all the time, right now.

it's the worst on the way down

like swallowing a brick and 

and without anything to wash it down with. 

Dry. And this is the first October that I can recall feeling so 

Dry. Today just started and kept going and it hasn't stopped 

and I'm so 

I'm so tired 

but 

my room is cold. 

It's freezing and I don't remember what it's like to be in love or how a rose smells, 

and 

and it's a stinging feeling, 

just to know that.

and it's all the time, 

right now.