away

I don't have anything, because

it was taken

away

and they are always saying, free

you

"live as though you're playing"

and the embers

look like embers

and the

burning felt like something

finally, something

to devour

I am cold and still a coward

when the air outside is heavy

I can barely hear the noisy breaths

that things and

people

take as they move

farther

away.

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watch them go

the horses across that green field

in that movie about

the afterwards

when that actor that you can't forget the name of

screams out and alone and you think

to yourself, you think

I've been there, though you haven't

not there but

in a similar place,

yes

I am sure the colors would get to you if you

stopped living so fast for a second

kept breathing, but

relaxed

for a second, I

just want to see you opening up like an oyster

showing your pearls

letting your legs grow

closing your eyes at sunset

touching passing cars

they brush by you

watch them go

mild things vs. wild things

now that we are

small again

I will act as the

cotton balls, necessary to

glue the 'l' back to the 'f'

and the 'e' back together but the

i is the worst bit

almost undiscoverable

so the giants

they're stomping their big feet on

pavement and talkin' real

loud, it hurts

my ears

so i cover them

and catch myself

standing alone, surrounded

by the

non-whisperers

circling me singing

'bout fighting, and i'm

anxious, even though

they-

can't see us

because we really

can't be us

around them.

suprise

There is a small piece of screen

broken off

from the front door of where

I shouldn't return to

stuck to my

dress, but I

don't care, because

it isn't my style

anyway

and in the morning when I see you

for a quick second, I

will stop to admire the tiny

mess I've made in a

space too compact to

hold masquerades such as

this-

now, that

we don't look each other in the eyes

anymore

it's only night that brings your arms around my spine and

plays quick movies in my right brain

it kills me just to go along

(kills me just to go)

it kills me just to go along

(kills me just to go.)

do you want to hear it?

I think that I'm going to cry soon

until I explode and you'll all see

for a second

how much I feel

because it looks like a flock of seagulls

on fire

without pain

or it looks like almost nothing

except

December rain, tapping

at any windowpane

freezing before it even hits

the

glass,

and she said,

I don't know myself from

anybody else.

nothing

amounts to the air that surrounds us in

summer

some are strange

you know, those things you have

those, feelings

feel things loosening and hear them

tearing apart, a

terrifying game of

tug-o-war, the

rugged jeans he wore will

shape your future lover just as

they shaped his

ass pin the tail

because it's your birthday party and

we love you, oh

we loved you

then

remember if you can

forget if you can.

in turning belly aches into radiation, babe

and the last thing I heard

it was

no, I'm sorry, I cannot help you

there is no way that I can

help you

magnified like a missing wallet when you're late

already and disappointing because it was

your fault,

really, for

not being as impressive as was necessary-

lonely little owl,

the grey kitten left in a

cardboard box, NY

you-

mean a lot to me, I promise

but

I am in love with somebody, honestly

haunting how a part of me now is a

part of you

isn't it?

and my intentions

were not to take away

as I intended not to walk

away, so fast

rapid feet on concrete heading

past Brighton and its

1400s.